30 Day Challenge Temporarily Paused

I am pausing the 30 day challenge as of today. I'm not giving up, merely reaccessing what I must do. The past few days I have been in a contemplative mood, and have discovered a few things about myself that I either didn't know to begin with or had forgotten about. Its lead me to really think about what I desire and where I want to go, so I am taking some time to plan better.

It has come to my attention that I don't plan well enough. I always thought it was my follow through that was lacking, but it would seem that is not the case. I get these half-formed ideas, and I instantly go to implement them, instead of allowing them to simmer and really get an idea of what I want to do with the idea. If I want to do anything at all.

I have left a lot of unfinished projects behind me. And much of that is due to going off half-cocked at the first spark of an idea, before I even know if its something I want to do. It sounded good at the time, you know? Granted that makes me a far more spontaneous person, but it leaves a pervasive air of failure as well.

So I am taking a step back and really thinking about what I want to do, and how to get there. I feel led to do more then just babble nonsense at people, and I am finally seeing a depth I had been missing for years. In this time I will not be implementing too many changes, I want to go with the flow, but in a more sedate manner. More then likely the only blogs I will be updating regularly will be this one and my cleaning blog, as I decide what exactly it is I want to do with the rest. Basically I will be living with much more conscious thought, and moving with a purpose. I knew the Army was good for something.